feeling blue and grey

I don't know why, and i can't explain it, you just only the reason. Yup, when i read you,i know that is the true. You're the big blue and wide grey. But i didn't know the meaning when you said like that,...when you said you still the same like the past.
Do you know?Now, it isn't a same condition. It is enough. You just make it like a dust. And i just want to be an invisible. Disappear turn into my reality. Without you. Without the perfect ending like a fairy tale. While i can being blue just by my self.